Saturday, May 19, 2018

Mumbai

Mumbai. Shifting skylines & shifting memories. The old and the new. Dreams and dust. Noises of crowds silenced by roars of the sea. Warm nostalgia inbreeding with cold concrete. Shining glass shattered by the smoky fog. Familiar places where innocence was pawned for many loves lost. Where many dreams were woven in silent whispers with the rain.

Mumbai. Now, when I meet you, you come back to me like an old lover with the same sense of history, of conflicted emotions, of unfinished endings. You are a part of me that I cannot shake off. You hold a mirror to me that I do not want to see. You embrace me with your expansive horizons and provide a sense of peace I do not want to feel. Your smell, your touch at once remind me, in an instant, of who I am. And then, in the cold alleys behind your many train stations, we trade our difficult relationship in the dark - you and your shifting skylines, me and my shifting memories.

Promise me, there will be more

What is this marriage, this union of souls
Where even your silences aren’t your own
What is this togetherness, these facades these faces
When darkness is all that you have sown

I used to be your sunshine, your shadow, your soul mate
Pointing to lofty goals
Today I stand, a ghoul, a monster
A mirror to all your holes

I see you, lost, lonely and listless
Afraid, of what oceans lie
Terrified, i see you, fight, take flight
Broken wings, still trying to fly.

You said we would build something new, something wild
We would stack it high up to the clouds
But here we are flung now across the streets
Collecting our promises run into the ground

You said we would ride free, flying, cavorting
The magic of all that is life
But now here we are cringing, Twisting
As a noose holds us together at night

You said we are the dreamers, the enchanters
The magicians, the mavericks, the mad
But now we lie despondent wondering
At what other misfortunes lie

I hold onto you my darling, my love
Looking for our magic inside your soul
Hold me close and take me home,
And promise me, there will be more.

- Inkk

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